I have met someone. Someone actually in my zip code. Someone who I actually am kinda attracted to...
And it scares me to death.
He checks a lot of boxes:
He's a couple of years older than me;
Divorced;
6'2" and in fairly good shape;
Funny;
Employed;
Nice looking (beautiful blue eyes);
And he seems to really be attracted to me as well.
Oh boy...
I just went on Facebook and posted an uncharacteristic - personal - post about being ready to jump back in to 'the game'.
Ugh.....why didn't I just post that I bought a box of condoms and was going to go to town?!?!
I hate leading, self serving posts. The kind that invite questions, that stir up stuff. And yet...there go I.
Amazing.
I guess I am looking for validation. Really? Permission? Maybe putting it out there that I am actually still thinking of 'getting it on'?
Wait - my kids read my posts. Better block them...
I have not mentioned meeting T to my kids nor my local friends. Well, I did mention him to two friends. And both said the same thing: 'Go for it' 'Have some fun'
I always talk myself out of 'fun'. Why? On the online date I went on and now with this guy, I just am afraid of not feeling to the same extent as the guy. I guess I'm just hesitant because I don't want to disappoint another person.
Or maybe I'm afraid of really feeling something? And what if my kids don't like him? See?! This is what I do to myself!
Just breathe idiot and enjoy whatever comes your way!
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