And he always tells me that he still loves me. And that he doesn't know 'what he did'.
Well, he certainly hasn't changed. I mean he treats me ALOT better now than he did when we were married. He keeps his temper in check. And he is alot more caring...and polite.
My friends think it's weird that we see each other so much. My mother is afraid we are going to get back together. Our son is TERRIFIED that we are going to get back together.
I don't know. Oh, I'm NOT even entertaining getting back together. No matter how POOR I am nor how lonely I may occasionally be...nope, not going to happen.
Maybe that's why I still see him...to constantly reinforce my decision???
Well that IS reinforced EVERY time...
I mean we do share SO much history...I'm just not going to have that with anyone else and I do have to admit, I miss that familiarity. But that's where it ends.
He has, and continues to, reaffirm my decision to part ways. He's still the whiny, poor me, lazy ass he always was. And I've got his number. While he's 'pining' away for me - in front of me - he's in overdrive on social media about how 'a perfect marriage is two imperfect people who refuse to give up on one another' or this one:
So, yeah, I got sick of putting up with his 'shit' which included, but certainly not limited to: bombastic tantrums - screaming and yelling everywhere and anywhere, so loud my neighbors even wondered who he would be yelling at; his constant, relentless non-treatment of me and his younger children: NEVER having any time to do ANYTHING with them, always putting EVERYONE and EVERYTHING before us and our home life: consistently going out with the boys after work, never having the COURTESY to call and let me know and yada yada.
Oh, and as for his 'weird little ways'...what would that be? The way he trolled for ass on the internet? Or maybe how he would spend the day at the computer - naked and on disgusting porn sites - while he was unemployed and should have been looking for a job to support his family? Or the way he liked to impulsively, threateningly, put his fat hands around my neck and squeeze just to see how it felt and how I would react? Or maybe the 'way' he'd pull me out of bed by my hair when he was fucked up drunk? Yep, this big teddy bear (our former neighbor's description of him) or guy with a heart of gold (an old friend's very public FB description of him) sure had some 'weird little ways'.
And I am GLAD to be RID of him.
I do actually feel sorry for him though. He really is as unmotivated, self centric, dense and tunnel-visioned as I had perceived him to be. He is content - for whatever reason - living in the prodigal son's guest room. It's easier I guess than to try. He has no job, draws SS and poor mouths out the wazoo.
He is exactly where he wants to be no matter what he claims to feel for me. He still NEVER contacts our children - they reach out to him. And his head is firmly up the prodigal's ass.
When we split up I let him keep his 401(k) (and I kept mine) and some inheritance money he had received. Those funds plus his half of the sale of our family home left him with a six figure sum in the bank. Now nearly two years later he says he's nearly broke. Really??? Just as I had feared, his baby boy has talked him into buying a piece of lakefront property. He showed me a picture. It's a piece of land with a dilapitated trailer on it...which my ex is going to LIVE IN! It happens to be a parcel of land next door to the P's best buddy. The ex said he feels good that P and his buddy will now be able to grow old together, sit on their front porches and drink beer.
Heartwarming...
Wow...what happened to the interest of the other three kids?
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